A Love I Will Never Forget

to: shortie ~ from: nate

dear shortie,

look, i don't know where to start. i love you. i have loved you since as long as i can remember, shortie. i guess the first time i told was when i realized how much you meant to me. we have known each other for years. once we got together, i couldn't believe how good things were going. it was too good to be true. it was perfect in the beginning. i loved you, and you loved me. i felt like that's the way it should still be.

i didn't want you to leave - honestly, i didn't. if i could go back, i'd beg you to stay by my side. to know you'd be miles away was breaking my heart, but i wanted you to be happy. i wanted you to make a good future for yourself, for us. now that i think about it, how could i have let you go? what was i thinking then? look what has happened.

i know we've been through the toughest of times. and because of that i think we are stronger than we thought. we lasted a good while. i'm so incredibly sorry for everything that i did wrong. i wish you could just tell me, and i would change it all. but, you know that neither of us were innocent when it came to hurting each other.

when i said i would marry you, i meant it. i wanted to live my entire life loving you. we could have grown old together. i know you wanted that. it would have been great. but what happened to us, shortie? where did we go wrong? wasn't our love untouchable? wasn't it strong? i sit and think, and the only thing that best explains it is that we needed to be together physically. having you in one state and me in another was unbearable. although, i wanted to be with you so badly, i also have school and my life here. if i could go back i'd probably leave with you when i had the chance. would things be better now or is this the way it is supposed to be?

all i know is we may not be together now or maybe not ever again. but i want you to know that you are someone i will never ever forget. i loved you, and still love, and will always love you, no matter what. we've been through a lot. but that love is still there. i hope you find happiness. i hope all your dreams come true. you deserve a lot.

i feel very lucky to have had the chance to experience the love we once had. it's something i will forever cherish. please don't forget it. i know things aren't the best now, but at least we still have our friendship. that's where it all started. i just ask for one thing; be happy, and know that i'm happy. i will always think of you.

love always,

lucky angel